I could go on and on about this day, but it is late and I just want to say I am happy. I am the mother to three beautiful girls that I love more than any words can describe. That simple sentence brings tears to my eyes. They are my angels. Sometimes it seems that they were sent here to make me better...more patient...more kind...to see the good in the world; but I know that their purpose is much grander than that. I just hope I can help them recognize it.
We had fun today...Eleanore kept telling me enthusiastically "Happy Mother's Day!" and asking who everyone's mother is (who is Nana's mother? Who is Daddy's mother? etc.) It was nice to spend time just hanging out together (after church of course).
I used to dread this day with thoughts of feeling left out...I wanted to be a mother and couldn't, and my own mom is gone. I felt the day was lame...a "Hallmark Holiday."
Now a mother, I still think the "Hallmark Holiday" part of it is lame, and I do wish my mom was here to hold my babies and show me how to juggle three small children and make them each feel special...to enjoy the little baby stage and not wish the moments away (and tears DID come to my eyes in sacrament meeting when we sang Love at Home -- my parent's "anthem" of choice for our family -- I miss them). Still, I did appreciate the opportunity to reflect today on how blessed I am when it comes to the subject of motherhood: I am a mother and I've been guided by MANY incredible mother figures to show me the way. To summarize a few: my mother, my step-mother, my four amazing sisters/best friends, two step-sisters, eight sister-in-laws, my sweet mother-in-law, my beautiful grandmothers and many dear girlfriends and Relief Society sisters.
I hope all of you had a fantastic Mother's Day. You deserved it. You actually deserve a medal every day, but the reality is the kind of beauty, patience, enduring love, hard work, modesty, kindness and love that I (and others) admire in you each doesn't get medals. You get the everlasting love of your children/sisters/grandchildren/nieces and nephews. Thanks for all you do. I am grateful for your examples (to me and my daughters) of the kind of woman I am striving to become.
I used to dread this day with thoughts of feeling left out...I wanted to be a mother and couldn't, and my own mom is gone. I felt the day was lame...a "Hallmark Holiday."
Now a mother, I still think the "Hallmark Holiday" part of it is lame, and I do wish my mom was here to hold my babies and show me how to juggle three small children and make them each feel special...to enjoy the little baby stage and not wish the moments away (and tears DID come to my eyes in sacrament meeting when we sang Love at Home -- my parent's "anthem" of choice for our family -- I miss them). Still, I did appreciate the opportunity to reflect today on how blessed I am when it comes to the subject of motherhood: I am a mother and I've been guided by MANY incredible mother figures to show me the way. To summarize a few: my mother, my step-mother, my four amazing sisters/best friends, two step-sisters, eight sister-in-laws, my sweet mother-in-law, my beautiful grandmothers and many dear girlfriends and Relief Society sisters.
I hope all of you had a fantastic Mother's Day. You deserved it. You actually deserve a medal every day, but the reality is the kind of beauty, patience, enduring love, hard work, modesty, kindness and love that I (and others) admire in you each doesn't get medals. You get the everlasting love of your children/sisters/grandchildren/nieces and nephews. Thanks for all you do. I am grateful for your examples (to me and my daughters) of the kind of woman I am striving to become.
9 comments:
Happy Mother's Day Em!! You do deserve a medal every day. You are a wonderful example to those three girls, and one of the most loving mothers I know. They are lucky to call you mom. I hope you were pampered a bit!
You are an amazing mother to be able to juggle 3 small children! I hope you had a great day! Those little girls are blessed because you are their mother!
Thank you, Emily, that was a beautiful post. News, Audrey just has one more chemo treatment and then we are finished - well we will have to have scans and MRIs quite often but the chemo will be done! We are planning a trip to Venice in July so I hope we can spend some time with you guys. Fingers crossed all goes well with the rest of the treatments and the arrival of the new baby.
It's funny I have such a hard time with this holiday. Nolan asked me what I want for Mothers day and I asked it to be just like any other normal day. I think it's still a bitter taste on all the years without a mom, but I can't explain it. I wish it still wasn't a weird time for me. Maybe I will get better eventually. I'm glad you had a good day. I liked your post and related to many of your feelings. Miss you!
I love that picture! Mother's Day brings lots of mixed emotions to me too, but I think you said it perfectly. We are so lucky.
Happy Mother's Day Emily! Glad to hear you had a great day. Give those girls huggs and kisses from us!
Love the picture with your little angels, and your post was beautiful. Looks like you had a wonderful mother's day.
you look so pretty in that picture! And really, your such an awesome mom. I look up to you in SO many ways, I can't even begin to count. YOU especially deserve a medal, even though no one is handing them out. 3 girls under 2? Ya, it's hard now, and forever. Hopefully you guys have room enough they won't have to share closet space!
Cute picture of ALL the girls! You are a wonderful mother with lots to celebrate! I could relate to lots of the mixed feelings that I usually also get on mother's day. I still relate it more to my mother than I realizing that I am a mother myself & deserve to have my day!! I guess that just comes from always wanting to be babied & have someone to call mommy even when you're 35 yrs. old.
Your girls will all cherish this day as they grow to understand who their mother really is.
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