The Buckleys: Nervous

Tomorrow (in 10 hours) Bryan and I are going to Las Vegas. I am so excited to get away, see two of my brothers and their wives (and one of my cute nephews and a brand new baby niece), and my great Aunt Millie. I am especially excited to spend time alone with Bryan since we haven't had a night without babies since Eleanore was born. BUT I am so nervous about leaving the girls (thus I can't sleep and that is why I am blogging at this hour).

The only time I've ever been away from Eleanore overnight was when I delivered Ivy and Maya. Besides that I think the longest I've ever been away from her is probably 10 hours...which felt really long. So this is big...really big.. I know they'll be fine, Bryan's brother and his wife and my mom- and dad-in-law will be watching them. Eleanore views her sleepover at her cousins as her own vacation and is 100% excited. But I'm still nervous, especially for Ivy and Maya. I hope they don't think I'm never coming back...how scary would that be for a little baby?

I hope everything goes good and that my babies don't hate me for leaving them for a couple of days....

I want to remember it like this...

October 2010:

Both Ivy and Maya say "Dada." Maya says in her growly voice a very clear, "DAD!" They are growing up too fast.

Eleanore likes to look in the mirror next to our table while we are eating dinner and she'll often talk to her reflection. She'll say things like "Who are you?" Yesterday she said, "Bananas smell good. Dirty socks don't smell good."

Eleanore dressed up like a fairy and announced "I am a Fairy Gospel."

In preperation for Halloween, Eleanore has been talking about all the things she could be and pretending to be many different Halloween-like characters including a nice witch and a mean witch. The nice witch laughs like this "HaHaHa" (high pitched and smiling. The mean witch laughs like this "HeHeHe" (low voice and scowl).

September 2010:

A friend of my mine stopped by to visit and she had her friend's son, Adam, with her. Throughout our hour-long visit Eleanore kept repeating "Adam was a prophet, first one that we know..." over and over. I kind of felt bad for the boy (who incidently is not a member of our church and doesn't know that Primary song), but it was pretty funny.

Eleanore has picked up on a few phrases that I use...that I think I picked up from my pops. "I'm exasperated." and "Oh Fiddlesticks." The latter really makes me think of my Dad.

After Bryan brushed Eleanore's hair she turned and said, "Thanks, Sweetie!"

August 2010:

Out of the blue (during a converstation lull...the girl doesn't like silence) Eleanore will often suggest, "Let's chat!"

Eleanore announces. "I know Portuguese." We ask, "Really, what?" "Portuguese!"

My new name: "Momster." Sometimes, even "Momsterarooski."

Eleanore loves to give giant hugs (just what they sound like), big smackarooskis (big kisses), and little mouse hugs (whe touches my shoulder with both hands and then busts up laughing).

July 2010:

Walking outside, Eleanore began narrating: "It was a beautiful summer day..."

A few months ago a man in our ward fell of the roof. We were talking about it because we were going to bring them dinner, and haven't really talked about it since. Today when El woke up from her nap she whispered, "Mom, someone fell off the roof." I asked who, totally not knowing what she was talking about. "Brother Dumm." She announced. It was actually a man named Brother Barrett, but Brother Dumm was sick at the same time and Bryan went to visit him the same day. What a memory she has.

June 2010:

I often tell Eleanore that if we watch too much TV our brains will get mushy. The other day I told her it was time to turn off the TV and she said, "Yes, my hair is mushy."

I told Eleanore that the babies didn't feel good. She said, "Mom, when I'm a grown up I can be a doctor and take care of them."

Eleanore asked what "No problem" means. I told her it meant you'd be glad to do it. Since then, I asked her if she would like to finger paint, she replied, "I'd be glad to do it." I got the same response when I asked if she wanted a piece of candy.

May 2010:

"[Ivy] is a precious girl. I feel that in my heart," Eleanore after kissing Ivy.

"My hair is not a toy Mom," Eleanore to Mom after sitting through three attempts at French braids.

"It's hard being a big sister," Eleanore.

"I love you, I love you, I really, really love you," Eleanore singing very seriously and loudly.

Eleanore asked to watch a t.v. show called Max and Ruby, I told her, "No, I don't like that show. " She responded, " Then you go away and I'll watch it. I like it."

January 2010:

"Babies poop a lot," Eleanore to Mom as I changed yet another diaper. "Babies cry a lot," Eleanore to Mom about five minutes later.

11 comments:

Worle said...: You are so brave, but I'm sure it will be some MUCH needed alone time for you and Bryan! I've left Luke twice with a babysitter, both times were 2.5 hours or less, and I was a nervous wreck the entire time!!! I hope you have so much fun and get to do things you never get to do because you always have a kid on your hip! Sleep in, and only do things when you want to do them. It's hard to remember what life was like before all your babies, I'm sure, but I'm so happy that you will get to enjoy a little time to yourself. I know you TOTALLY deserve it!!!; February 25, 2011 at 9:54 AM
Worle said...: Also, I have heard it's good for your kids to leave them every now and again, I don't know if I necessarily agree with that yet, but I know you will have fun! Can't wait to see pics and read about your trip!!!; February 25, 2011 at 9:55 AM
* Nancy * said...: Oh sweet Em, I feel for your nervous heart and mind!
Tim was just telling me on his way to Vegas that he thought you were leaving the girls behind. I told him I didn't think you were. I guess he's right after reading your post! Kind of bummed since we have yet met the twins. Now I really can't wait for our family reunion.
I think this will be good for you, Bryan, and your girls. You will feel recharged...I guess this is what moms do best is worry for their little ones. They'll be fine, and can't wait to see you!; February 25, 2011 at 2:33 PM
Melissa said...: Have a great time and can't wait to see the pics! I bet you will miss the girls more than they are going to miss you! They will have so much fun with cousins and their grandma and grandpa!; February 25, 2011 at 5:55 PM
Catherine said...: so far no tears from the girls.; February 25, 2011 at 8:09 PM
Kim said...: I was nervous when we left our kids too, but they did awesome and it turned out to be so nice to have that 'break' from being a mommy 24/7. Hope you guys have fun!; February 26, 2011 at 11:26 AM
Catherine said...: Rob: How many kids do we have in the house?
Catherine: 7
Rob: I can only find 6, which one is missing.......; February 27, 2011 at 8:19 AM
Sarah said...: Love that tease from Catherine... too funny. I bet you really enjoyed the break & sounds like the girls were in good hands. I'm a bit jealous... would love to see all the folks you were able to catch up with! Hope you had fun!; February 28, 2011 at 3:14 PM
Celeste said...: You deserve it! I'm sure everything will go well. Have fun :); March 1, 2011 at 4:09 PM
Ashley said...: Oh I can't wait to hear about your trip! I am with you on the nerves though. I still haven't left my kids either, except for the night I had Grace! So crazy, post pictures soon!; March 2, 2011 at 7:22 PM
Ashley said...: Oh I can't wait to hear about your trip! I am with you on the nerves though. Of course they will be totally in good hands! I still haven't left my kids either, except for the night I had Grace! So crazy, post pictures soon!; March 2, 2011 at 7:22 PM

Friday, February 25, 2011

Nervous

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